Walk By Faith
2 Corinthians 5:7 – “We walk by faith, not by sight.”
This passage has always frustrated me. I’ve understood it, yet never known how to accomplish it.I mean if you can’t see how do you know where your going. And yet, there are millions of other passages that support this one. A woman touching Jesus’s hem by faith, knowing that only a touch of his is clothing will heal her. That she need not touch him personally that she could get in trouble for doing such a thing. A man asking Jesus if he is willing, he could heal him. Every story about the blind being healed and seeing. Mouses, Noah, Abraham…all having to believe and have faith will doing there work signed to them by God with out knowing the possible outcome. Or even where they were going.
Yet most of the time I feel so lost by this passage, because it makes me feel as if I am in an empty room filled with blinding light. There are no shadows nor walls, everything is just out of my reach…yet I’m not sure its even there. I just have to guess. Just have to believe. The feelings that consume me are nerve reckoning. Emptiness and the feeling of being totally alone swells over me. I could only pray for the that bright room to turn dark so that the vastness narrows and I could guess my moving shadows where walls are at. Or that maybe my imagination about fabricate something out of the darkness to make me think I wasn’t so alone. Yet with the light, I cannot doing that. For it hides nothing and shows everything. Every flaw in me, and my life. It’s more scary than the darkness.
I know though that I must live by faith and that someday I will grow more accustom to it. That it won’t feel so open ended. That there are goals within reach and not so far off. I know that I can’t live by my emotions, and as a woman that is a hard thing to accomplish. But someday I will fully learn how to curb that, for now though I must try to have patients and practice.
Practice my faith, hold off my feelings without going cold, being the woman God wants me to be.
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Walk By Faith said this on May 3, 2008 at 9:58 pm